Report on Chemo #1

So, the first chemo treatment happened 6 days ago. I have had some good results and some less positive. There has been little nausea, in fact none at all. But, there has been much digestive "tenderness." I think that my digestive tract is irritated (who can blame it?) and so digestive acids are making it ache. I have had a constant stomach ache. Not debilitating, but very, very annoying and emotionally draining. My scalp has become tender, perhaps a precursor to hair loss. I have been very tired and feeling a bit like I was getting the flu. I am learning what is possible to eat and what to stay away from. My appetite has changed. I get full more quickly and some things don't appeal much anymore. I am needing to rest and sleep more.

Yesterday a port was installed into my chest so that the chemotherapy can be delivered into my system through this device. It is a little plastic disk under the skin with a catheter running into one of the veins in my chest. The installation was done under "conscious sedation." I was awake and aware but under the influence of a tranquilzer and pain meds. I felt alot of pulling, tugging, and pressure while this was being done. There was definitely an "owie" factor. Today I feel bruised and sore from it. There is a thin covering of skin over the port. When medicine needs to be put in or blood taken out, a needle can be inserted into the port through my skin. I wish it had been installed before I took chemo and was feeling the effects, but it's done now.

Yesterday, probably due to anxiety and discomfort, I was emotionally quite low. Really wanted to just lay down and cry for a long time. I think that is a natural and understandable reaction. There are going to be tough days, certainly. That was one of them. Emotionally, I am better today.

Tonight is the haircut. All my long hair comes off and gets donated to Locks of Love. This will be a big change. But, I have come to believe I can cope easier with short hair and if it does start to fall out or thin significantly, shorter will be less trouble. I have a few turbans, scarves, and a donated wig, just in case. The wig may not be my ultimate solution, but it is a start.

There has been so much kindness directed my way. It is sometimes unlooked for, but always greatly appreciated. I am a very fortunate woman, despite a sore chest and an aching belly.